Burn it Down

I should probably not being writing so much in my blog during exams, but I have one last thing to share. Don't build stuff up to burn it to the ground :P . No, seriously, I have been building myself up for the past 2 years in college, and I am not ready to burn it down yet ;)

Lights

"I had way then of losing it all on my own...I had a heart then but the Queen has been overthrown..."

Mid-semester exams have made me realize one thing: I have not reached my final destination. I keep thinking I have to study, I have to get good grades, I have to improve my programming skills, I have to Ace my interviews, & I have to get a good job, the endpoint! I forgot to remind myself, that THAT job is not MY endpoint! I got caught up in the race and I don't want to run. I want to walk through life. I want to enjoy the journey, and I don't want to end my life in only 2 more years.

"And so I tell myself I'll be strong and dreaming when they are gone..."

Na Chhode Yaariyan

It has been awhile since I wrote in my blog. There are many reasons why that is, but to name a few...hmm let's see for one I just have not gotten the time till now, I have not had any new exciting experiences to write about and well lastly, I was busy catching up on my sleep!

But now that is in the past. I want to mention to the readers of this blog that this post is dedicated to my friends. I don't think I would be who I am without them! They inspire me, believe in me, teach me, and sometimes irritate me. But in the end it's all good. They are worth every moment of time I spend with them. Even if it's is right before a big exam! If you are one to ignore your friends when you are stressed about an assignment or big test, I say choose your friend. It will go a long way. You never know when you are going to need that same friend more than anything else in the world! I don't think I appreciate my friends for all they have every done for me. Hey guys you know who you are. Thanks, for being there for me! :)

Dreading Times

These days I have nothing to do. No activity whatsoever. My life is dormant and ordinary. There is no fun and there is no life. I am overcome with boredom, so over the top filled with emptiness that I have nothing left to write. The repeated word that comes to mind is "nothing". THAT is the state of my mid...nothing.

There are a couple of things I can ascribe this state of mind to. One would be the continuous overflow and stress load that I have to juggle and maintain. The other would be the constant doses of disappoint and failure. But on a more positive note I see things looking up soon because the worst part is now over. It can only go up from here.

So peace,
I'm out for now

Its supernatural!!!

The "sound of music"...an awesome movie by the way!

I must click on this logo about twenty times a day! We all know this picture to be the familiar iTunes logo. If you have an Apple product, you have iTunes on your Desktop. Now as much as I want to continue the topic on iTunes and other Apple software systems, I rather talk about music, in general.

Most people, throughout their entire lives, learn two, three, four, at most five languages. I have never meet anyone who was able to speak six languages perfectly. But music is a language too...I mean did anyone ever stop and thinking about learning the language of music?


What is music anyway? Is it sound? Is it a rhythm? Or is it the lyrics that mean something? No matter what you look for in a good song, they are all ways of communicating what you feel. I mean everyone listens to music! I don't care who it is or what kind of music it is! It is a given fact. Since the day music was born, people have opened their ears to the beautiful harmonies artists out there offer! So you ask when was music born? Well, I don't quite know either, but I can tell you that it must have been around the same time man was born too. I don't think any human could have thrived without a little hip hop, rap, jazz, or rock in his life. Yes, even the cave men must have head banged to rock once or twice in their caves...I mean literally :)

I guess my point here is take time to appreciate music. It is not that hard as music is everywhere! Music can bring people together as it too is a very VERY beautiful language.

Just the other day...

Just the other day I was "walking on sunshine." And in the poetic words of Katrina and The Waves I asked myself, "don't it feel good?"

A couple days ago, I was in the midst of my most relaxing days over the past 3 months. The entire day was mine. I was not compelled to spend a single minute for another soul. Yes, I was contained in the walls of my apartment, but that feeling of confinement never entered my mind at any single moment.

Now summer is over. My first college summer is over, and it "don't feel so good." My long relaxing days are going to once again become compact and filled with classes and assignments. The hours, minutes, and seconds of each day will no longer belong to me. Dedication, persistence, and determination will become my daily mottoes. Is it just the hard work that repels the thought of college? No, that is not the only reason. It is the additional stress and pressure I constantly receive from my peers, classmates, and professors. And myself included. Fear oozes from my very pores as I think of the possibility of me not meeting my very own expectations. I don't think I will be able to handle that feeling once more. Remembering all this "don't make me feel so good."