Life is what happens to you when you are busy making plans...that's why I don't plan...you ask me what are you going to do tomorrow...I will tell you I have n.O__i.D.e.A ;)

Monday, 19 May 2014

Yes I am talking to you

He sits in his chair as if he has no job in the world, but in fact he has the most important job to do in that office. He has to make decisions, decisions that make and break everything. Yet, he sits there with his fingertips joining his two hands. He looks like he's contemplating on what to do. But no we are wrong, he has already decided what his next move will be. He is playing out the sequence of events in his head. The consequences, the reactions to his decisions are clear to him. He gets up to walk towards the window. He looks out as if what he sees may somehow have an effect on what he will do next. But again we are wrong, he opens the window. There is a knock at the door, and his secretary walks in and says, "Sir, they are here". He faces shows no emotion. He has anticipated everything, there will be no surprises of that he seems sure. They sit and start an elaborate discussion that quickly gets elevated into an argument. Now there are multiple talking and many controversies on the table. That is when the soft cold wind comes in through the window. Papers start flying everywhere. There is chaos as businessmen in their suits, with their ties flying and blocking their view, are trying to gather their possessions and settle down again. In all the chaos, the man stays absolutely still in the same pose we found him a bit earlier, but this time he seems to have a slight smirk on his face. He knew that these men would come to his office with pages of complaints and demands would never be able to put them together, not even with a paper-clip, into something solid. As things begin to settle, the men realize how disoriented they have become. They are not able to recover and are now silent. When the draft passes, he sees another girl at the other end of table, who seemed unperturbed. Even her hair seemed unyielding to its perfect position. The man sat upright, it seemed to him he finally met a worthy individual. Someone who was not just full of 'loose leaf pieces of paper'. He asks her to state the reasons behind her presence. She says, "Sir, I wanted to meet the man who is supposed to be dead". The man abruptly stands up, and ends the meeting. Once he is alone with the girl, he asks, "How did you find me?".

His secretary walks in, "Sir, they are here." The man realizes there is no good behind the window. He decides against opening it. He doesn't want to be discovered. His true identity is the one secret that nobody else can ever come to know. It would not play out well for him. He knew that. He would have to go along with the treacherous meeting after all. There was no other out for him. "There is no window." he says out loud.

"Sir," says the patient secretary.

"Yes, I am talking to you. There is no window in this room. There is no window on this glass wall. I want a window made."

Wednesday, 4 December 2013

Coolest quote from the movie "Jobs" (2013)

"Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules...and they have no respect for the status quo...You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do."

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

Second Chances Are Overrated

What is a second chance? Another chance to get disappointed.

This story is old to me
I can read the book for free
If you wanna tell me the tale again
Convince me to bear the pain

I heard those sweet words
I listened quietly and stared
You made me believe it was me
And sadly I was less scared

Every step taken cautiously
How did I end end up so lonely
Never did I feel misguided
My tour ended shortly

I have a negative charge like an electron
Despite it all I still won
Because I can rhyme not to boast
You are blind to all
But at least my blog got a new post :P


Wednesday, 11 September 2013

Quick post!

I have time for a quick post before I get started preparing for interviews! Semester 7 of college has been packed with a lot of BC/studying/and fun as usually! This time though, I feel like I am nearing the end of my college career. It feels like the end...is there more to come? It is easy to look back at all the laughing, crying, and screaming and think to myself it will all be gone soon :( ...The present seems to be fleeting, and I can't help but think the next chapter of my life and fast approaching. I am thrilled and excited, yet scared and confused. I feel safe knowing I have one more semester here, but I want the semester to go by so I can write new pages to my story. Just yesterday I was looking through my diary and I found memories that I had totally forgotten about! They made me smile, and I realized time can change people's lives by a whole 180 degrees!!! First year seems like forever ago and at the same time some things like going to house practices late at night and having night-outs regularly seem recent...I think I will miss everything and everyone here though it is hard to say when I also really want to move out! :P Oh well, I guess I will see where and how things go! :)

Wednesday, 27 March 2013

Fool me once shame on you...fool me twice shame on me

Optimism is a dangerous game. As the title implies I have been fooled twice and that too, too many times. And there is a simple reason for this: I am myself around everyone I know. I don't know how to pretend or how to be anyone I am not in front of people. And if there are others like me out there read carefully. Speaking from years of wisdom don't let everyone see the true you. I know this may sounds pessimistic and extremely negative. But let me make my point a little more clear. You will meet many people in this world. And only about 2 or 3, if you are lucky, will truly understand you. If you tell me otherwise I am inclined to say "wow lucky bastard". It's a simple fact of life. And trust me nothing is wrong with you. You can't make true friendships with everyone. But you can value the ones you do met along the way. I mean truly value them and cherish them for being there for you. In the end they matter the most to you. And if you get caught up trying to please people who will never think about you for more than 1 second in the entire day, then this is your wake up call. Don't let them stop you from living your life, move on and you when you break the bondage you can truly be yourself ;) By the way this is all advice to a very dear friend of mine. I hope she reads this...I really care for her!

Thursday, 17 January 2013

High on desperation

There is this wall; it is infinitely tall and infinitely wide. I can see through it; it's made of glass. It's not a castle (pun on Castle of Glass - Linkin Park...good song ;) ) , no it's wall and a hassle. A barrier between me and the rest of the world that I can look through. I look and I see the fast-paced life that revolves around me day to day. I put my hands up against the glass. No one can see me. Why? I'm invisible. The neglect is first shocking to me. Can't they see I'm trapped! Don't they care! I want to scream. Just look over here, just once! One glance is all I pray for. Then I see someone, they start to stare as if they see something. They take a step in my direction and then hesitate. I worry. But the look they give me is soft and one of compassion. I only hope they can see me and set me free. I am wrong. They stop turn around, and wander away slowly as if they saw nothing. I lost the one chance I had at achieving freedom. I start banging against the wall! I scream and shout and let it all out (pun on Scream & Shout - Will.i.am ft Britney Spears ;) ). I start crying. I have lost all hope. I don't want to be on this side anymore. I want to cross; I don't want to look at the world through glass anymore. I close my eyes shut hoping that when I open them I will wake up from this nightmare. But when I do open my eyes, I see a little girl kneeling by the glass wall. She has a rock. She starts digging. She looks like she is searching for something. She digs harder and faster. She is desperate, just like me. I am puzzled at the entire situation but I can;t help but root for her aim. I start jumping anxiously. I want to be free. I am forgetting what that feels like. The glass starts to crack. I want to help her, but I only stare at her dedication, and her will-power. I take a step back, the wall starts to crack and she stops to look up at the entire structure start to crack all the way up. She runs away and I run through the glass and break it as I make my way out. I try to follow her to thank the little girl for all she has done. She disappears into the crowd and I never see her again. The people around me go about doing their business not noticing that a huge wall has just fallen down. Nobody sees me, but she did. I know she did. I saw her and she saw me and that is all it takes.