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Thursday 17 January 2013

High on desperation

There is this wall; it is infinitely tall and infinitely wide. I can see through it; it's made of glass. It's not a castle (pun on Castle of Glass - Linkin Park...good song ;) ) , no it's wall and a hassle. A barrier between me and the rest of the world that I can look through. I look and I see the fast-paced life that revolves around me day to day. I put my hands up against the glass. No one can see me. Why? I'm invisible. The neglect is first shocking to me. Can't they see I'm trapped! Don't they care! I want to scream. Just look over here, just once! One glance is all I pray for. Then I see someone, they start to stare as if they see something. They take a step in my direction and then hesitate. I worry. But the look they give me is soft and one of compassion. I only hope they can see me and set me free. I am wrong. They stop turn around, and wander away slowly as if they saw nothing. I lost the one chance I had at achieving freedom. I start banging against the wall! I scream and shout and let it all out (pun on Scream & Shout - Will.i.am ft Britney Spears ;) ). I start crying. I have lost all hope. I don't want to be on this side anymore. I want to cross; I don't want to look at the world through glass anymore. I close my eyes shut hoping that when I open them I will wake up from this nightmare. But when I do open my eyes, I see a little girl kneeling by the glass wall. She has a rock. She starts digging. She looks like she is searching for something. She digs harder and faster. She is desperate, just like me. I am puzzled at the entire situation but I can;t help but root for her aim. I start jumping anxiously. I want to be free. I am forgetting what that feels like. The glass starts to crack. I want to help her, but I only stare at her dedication, and her will-power. I take a step back, the wall starts to crack and she stops to look up at the entire structure start to crack all the way up. She runs away and I run through the glass and break it as I make my way out. I try to follow her to thank the little girl for all she has done. She disappears into the crowd and I never see her again. The people around me go about doing their business not noticing that a huge wall has just fallen down. Nobody sees me, but she did. I know she did. I saw her and she saw me and that is all it takes.